this has been the longest day of my life and its not even 5pm.. i am going to spend the rest of it crying in bed over various things i wish was not currently happening until i pass out

it is raining hard & i am listening to the new Phish album that dropped a few days ago & the last track is called Petrichor & it is sad to not have the one who introduced me to them beside me to enjoy it with, but it is okay bc there are like 30k ppl at every phish show so i am bound to find others who i can enjoy them with soon :’)))

i woke up at 3pm today, drove my mom to a head shop to help her pick out her first bong, then practiced ballet & stretched mostly to live michael jackson shows until now.

4 days we’ve been apart… one was Les Claypools birthday (my fav musician), one was Trey Anastasios birthday (his fav musician), one the new Phish album was released, and todays national boyfriend day… what the fUCK

when u get home & realize u broke up on Les Claypools birthday and it makes everything 10x sadder.. like i listened to his music the whole 2 hr drive home when i was balling my eyes out and thinking about how his musics the only thing that makes me feel okay & then i realize its his bday…. bless u les, u damn bastard

i just wanna know who the fuck made “absence makes the heart grow fonder” a thing bc that has never been true in any aspect of my life

my favorite distraction ever from feeling like im in hell on earth is watching bob ross talk about his squirrels

long distance relationships are so bAAAD

when u triple check your volume before sneaking a pic of someone but forget to check the flash

when u make canna-oil edibles & u cant relax while testing it cuz ur mom keeps knocking on the door asking if u can feel it yet